unknown for now…
I’ve been struggling today with a burden. I have this strange need for people to like me and it clouds my mind, rendering me unable to think. I don’t like the idea that someone doesn’t like me, which I realize is a fruitless thought that will do nothing to better my soul. So I just need to move on and deal with it. Problem is, I want resolve and peace. Does that make me a wimp, or a mediator? Writing these thoughts down helps me articulate my feelings, even if it does nothing to soothe them. My heart feels heavy, and the joy I usually carry with me seems non-existent. It’s tough not knowing the big picture. Character building, some would call it. A test of my endurance. If so, then I am failing in the patience category. I honestly hope things will work out and the given situation will improve.
